Fake It

The time of year when we all think about resolutions; things we feel we want to accomplish for the next year.  We see the year spread out in front of us with all the promises we make ourselves completed by next year.  It feels so full of hope and energy, but then life sets in and resolutions seem to be the first thing broken.  Then we feel guilt blah, blah, blah!!

So this year, no resolutions!  I strive to keep going what I've already started.  I began getting in a real habit of writing once I got my girls put to bed at night.  Even if I only sit there for 5 minutes.  Some nights it's a real struggle to make myself get in there, but the amazing thing is once I sit down I'm usually there for at least an hour.  I feel so proud of myself with these little accomplishments.  Because of my 4 or 5 days a week writing at night I've finished a book.  The revisions are almost done. 

Now the hard part, (at least for me) is the feedback and sending it out.  How can fear of success be what holds me back?  I'm not scared of the rejections, that I expect, but what if just maybe someone likes it and want to publish it?  Then what?  In case you haven't guessed I'm terrified of anything new.  The older I get the worse I get. 

So my saying for this year is, "Fake it until you make it!!"  (It applies on so many levels lol).
Most people that I talk to have no idea that I have an almost debilitating fear of going into a crowd of strangers and making conversation.  I'll fake that I'm a people person, I'll fake that I'm fabulous, I'll fake it until it becomes part of who I am.

Head up, shoulders back...I'm a fabulous people person with great conversation skills.

Who's with me??